I have to admit, I was a bit afraid Mother’s Day would best me again this year, despite my best intentions.
A toothache. Pink eye. A day in pajamas on the sofa sounded so nice.
Luckily, I had someone in my corner this year. I told my husband about my plan for Mother’s Day this year, to go find peace, somewhere in nature.
I’ve realized that my happy place is in the woods, or a by the lake, or in a park. I tried to explain it to my husband, but couldn’t find the words. I feel in the moment. I feel connected. I feel alive.
My husband woke me up by suggesting we go to one of the most beautiful places on the planet, the Indiana University campus. I went to school there, and always talk to him about how I used to love going on long walks, long drives and just playing outside. He had some work to do near there, so it all worked out.
It was exactly what I needed. I found peace.
Something about the water. The trees. All of it. It brings peace.
I learned something important today. I can have a peaceful day, with sad thoughts. I had times where I so wanted Cora there so badly, but that doesn’t mean I wasn’t at peace. It’s a new balancing act, I will always miss her, but to be a good mommy to her, I need to find peace, and healing.
There’s a legend on campus. It’s actually pretty corny, but according to it, you aren’t a real co-ed until you’ve been kissed in this gazebo at midnight. I dragged Ben there thinking it would be a romantic moment, but it was a real moment instead, with a quick kiss and a bit of an eye roll from him. It was perfect.
Ben makes friends wherever he goes. Apparently even with inanimate objects. There were so many beautiful pink rose bushes. I loved it. A place so important to me has something that reminds me of Cora.
A beautiful, peaceful day. Mother’s Day, I’m not afraid of you anymore. You cannot and will not bully me anymore.













